Today I should have gone
But instead I went shopping.
As I tried on a sweater in Mango
I thought of our trips to Africa, France, Scotland.
I remembered us young and full of energy.
I wanted to go today.
But it was too sad.
Today I should have gone
But instead I went to Starbucks.
As I drank my Filter Coffee Tall
I thought of our fights, in cafés, caravans, living rooms.
I thought of us young with all our lives to live.
I wanted to go today.
But it was too sad.
Today I should have gone
But instead I went to the city.
They sent me a photo of you and your urn.
"Don't cry because it's over,
Smile because it was so lovely," says your urn.
I wanted to go today.
But there are tears in my coffee cup.
